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the good news is.
..i have an ulcer.
a break. from what, i'm not quite sure. i don't really know what i need to give up to make myself feel any better. i think i'm going to be done with livejournal for a while, [not because i lack self-control..right.] i think it's dumb when people blame their problems on their internet diaries. how trite. but- i don't want to document anything else of my life until i find some sort of order for myself. i feel like i'm going through a routine right now that i'm not going to want to remember. to solve this problem i will.
fuck this.
i don't even know what i'm trying to advocate.
so why bother.it just makes
any given situation
more ridiculous and
.when you're on a road to recovery. it's not the journey at all
it's the destination that matters.
so forget what they've taught you.
it doesn't apply here.and it won't apply out there
either.
this broadcast is over. i leave you with the following:
this is my father. just kidding.
..only everything i aspire to be.,
out.
//ashley nowak.
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[20 Jul 2003|09:23pm] |
new journal: ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) skiptracer
add and be added. or.. something like that.
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[18 Jul 2003|04:28pm] |
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dysenteryXcore
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[18 Jul 2003|02:39pm] |
art fair? oh man, you guys know how much i hate art fairs..
//just kidding.
thanks for calling.
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| ill communication. |
[17 Jul 2003|07:11pm] |
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shit, man.
my levels of vomit have reached an all time high. that's right- i'm sick. sometimes i do this thing where i get too busy to eat and i become disgustingly hungry.
the only problem is- my stomach will hurt,
and while i need to eat food in order to solve this problem,
everything looks/smells far too gross and unappealing
for me to want to consume it. so i don't.
that's a step in the wrong direction.
so i try to eat a little bit of like, crackers or something. and i just drink a lot of water. and while it sucks going in, it sucks even more coming out. it's like this continuous stream of vomit that just don't quit, girl.
that was gross.
anyway. the only position i am comfortable in is an upright fetal one, with my forehead pressed against the grimey toilet seat.
my current situation is an unfortunate one.
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[16 Jul 2003|03:27am] |
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elvis costello was amazing. he sets my heart/pants on fire.
he brings the fucking jams all over my face.
he played four separate encores.
each an average of five songs long.
elvis don't fuck around, nigga.
i love him times one thousand and eight.
it was definitely the best concert ever.
scott went with me. tonight was exceptionally hot.
i love scott almost as much
as i love elvis costello. almost.
and now- time for bed. i feel excellence.
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| the votes are in. |
[15 Jul 2003|11:42am] |
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fuck bitches |
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kid 606 |
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i will miss tony and tom the most next year. i need more money. maybe either of their jobs will hire me.
dear anyone having to quit their job to go to college:;
tell your boss about me. tell them i rock and that i love working.
fer serious.
i should just go to western. tom and i can share a dorm and have adult swim//dance parties.
+ + + + +
she’s discovered
wearing last night’s dress
the carnal and cunning
she couldn’t express
who do you think she’s trying to impress?
i think you’d better
hold your tongue
although you’ve never been that
strong
i’m sorry to say that i knew
all along
you’re no match for that
sulky girl
!!!
elvis costello is tonight OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
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[14 Jul 2003|09:52pm] |
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paris hilton is so fucking hot.
and if i wouldn't feel so inferior, i would totally make out with her.. maybe i should just be her, instead.
dude. i would have sex with everyone. fer serious.
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[12 Jul 2003|12:52am] |
i'm afraid my dear
.i'm at a loss for
words.
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[10 Jul 2003|03:52pm] |
if you're not going to the skinny fists show tonight, you should be:
@ the detroit art space. baltimore, off of woodward. it's the street before the white castle. 9-12. be there of suck it. i think it's $7.
whenever my mom leaves me notes, she always quotes things inappropriately.
today's example::;
ash--
when you get "home" bring the "paper-cutter" downstairs.
i can't stand it.
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[09 Jul 2003|06:48pm] |
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i have a new job.
as an art gypsy. no joke.
..what a horrible idea.
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[09 Jul 2003|05:59am] |
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i just woke up in a cold sweat.
and i can't fall back asleep
because
i just had the most horrific epiphany:;
how am i ever going to pay for all this college?
quick. name student loan/grants tatics- go.
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[08 Jul 2003|01:14pm] |
new girl!
--cut the mullet.
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[07 Jul 2003|03:25pm] |
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NRKF88 apartment is in full affect. berger and i own j00.
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| revelation. |
[07 Jul 2003|12:54am] |
starlit nirvana: classic rock is god
hah// wow.
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[07 Jul 2003|12:00am] |
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hilarious! |
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adult swim |
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mom: you can't just pretend that bills aren't there!
ash: i pretend that bill's not there all the time.
mom: we have too many phone lines- and we need to start eliminating some bills around here.
ash: eliminating bills? i know where we can start..
i love when my mom
discusses finances.
YOU DO IT ALL TO YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!111
wooo hoo-hoo. i slay me.
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[05 Jul 2003|05:29pm] |
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i'm upset.
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| to everyone::; |
[04 Jul 2003|11:44pm] |
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billy joel:; always a woman |
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yes. i am really good with remembering birthday's, BUT:
please leave me your d.o.b. in the comment section
and----
if you have a cell phone, please note what specific model it is.
*extra*
name three things that you really like.
preferably, something that pertains specifically to you.
ex: marianne = tarepanda//cute boys//oberlin
..only, make them more ojbect-y. so i guess the only real good part of that example was tarepanda. dammit.
i totally have the best idea ever. and if you don't comply, taht's okay-
..but you're going to get hoed out of something totally sweet.
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| i do it becuase i can. |
[04 Jul 2003|08:20pm] |
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our garage sale today was not particularly successful, we'll try again tomorrow. and sunday-- come!
516 s. west. do it do it do it. seriously. we're selling so many great clothes//table-type things//sweet unicorn paraphernalia
do you want to be popular?
do you want to have hip friends?
buy our old clothes!!!1
people will love you/make out with you.
i am bored tonight. i slept for a long time after i got home today// surprise! uhm. i am almost finished cleaning my room and throwing things out. too bad i still have things left at my dad's house.
oh well.
jenni and i are moving in together
and i am shitting my pants with excitement.
would anyone like to go to a dollar show soon?
..tom? allen?
i think i'm going to go over to harrison street soon and pick up the rest of my clothes. maybe i will play dress up tonight and have a lot of fun by myself. i could post pictures like the kids on my friends list and pretend that i'm super pretty/mysterious.
sounds good to me.
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| this is your obligation::; |
[04 Jul 2003|01:08am] |
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weakerthans:; everything must go |
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THE SKINNY FISTS [ + FRIENDS]
July 9::
+Battle of the Bands++
@ the US-12 in Wayne, 34824 Michigan ave.
[w/ three other bands]
$3
music starts at 10pm.
July 10::
the skinny fists
[w/ the blue sunrays/kinetic stereo kids/fksche/feed the machine]
@ the detroit art space, 101 East Blatimore,
9pm - 12pm-ish
be there. fer serious.>> these shows will be deck as ef.
--and. hipsters love you.. but/ only if you attend.
pete and i played board games tonight. it was rule.
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[03 Jul 2003|06:35pm] |
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good. because that's all you'll ever be.
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| aie aie aie>>> |
[03 Jul 2003|12:20pm] |
remember when i said college was dumb?
just kidding. i was at ccs for a while today. i walked around a lot. i felt like elle woods in legally blonde, though i've never seen the movie.. i think i only felt that way becuase i was wearing a skirt and looked mega cute.
my counselor's name is jared.
he is so granola i can't stand it- but he's still dope.
he was very pleasant, and he loved my portfolio.
i'm so so so excited.
the weird thing was i didn't think about dondero once
the entire time i was there.
that's really satisfying.
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| the best door in the world |
[02 Jul 2003|12:59pm] |
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i went to school today to get a new copy of my transcript
[note to self- stop referring to dondero as "school"]
ms. nelson wasn't there yet. so i just walked around for a while.
[note to self- ms. nelson is a bitch//don't wank around. as doing so will trigger intense nostalgia.]
i miss school. dondero
it's weird to think that that i'll be a
freshman again
in just a few months.
..something i wouldn't mind doing provided that it was the
"14 year old" freshman.
you know- the high school kind.
[despite the fact that freshman year was my "ugly" phase]
i think that despite the frequent disappointments, i was
very fortunate to have
such an excelelnt high school experience.
if i could do it all again, i would.
and i wouldn't change a thing.
COLLEGE IS DUMB> RAAAH.
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[01 Jul 2003|09:37pm] |
i am currently accepting applications for a room mate this fall.
i will be located in detroit. you should live with me, because:;
er.
adventures rule?
just for fun:
i am going to stop eating meat for the summer.
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[01 Jul 2003|12:36am] |
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dire straits:; romeo and juliet |
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all i've been doing lately is missing scott. it's dumb.
rightfully so, i guess.
two weeks in the hospital + one week up north
and unrelated:;
i want to scream.//move out
i need a vacation from everything. just stella and me.
i wonder where we should go..
pete is watching "some like it hot" i'm jealous.
OUT::
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[30 Jun 2003|07:02pm] |
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i would like to abolish senior citizen discounts. fer serious. it's like, good job- you're still alive. let me save you 10%
bullshit, man.
more often than not, old people have more money than anyone. even bill gates. students are poor. my vote goes to more student discounts. WORD.
old people totally piss me off.
i hope i die before i get old.
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[30 Jun 2003|05:08pm] |
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electric six: danger! high voltage |
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i just applied for a job at the art store. they have a few positions open, and i'm definitely over-qualified.
i really need that job. i hope i get it.
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| shut up |
[29 Jun 2003|11:01pm] |
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white stripes:; seventh son [maybe..?] |
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i've been thinking.
when i said i wished that i had relatives just so i could make money yesterday.. that wasn't true. i wish i had relatives just so i could have a family.
because i don't. and i think that's rough.
scott called me today. he's in lexington. he won't be home until sunday. today is sunday.
that means i have to count
every day of the week
before i can see him. he was already gone for two weeks.
not fair.
also.
i've been thinking.
scott didn't get me anything for graduation. which is fine. i wasn't wanting/needing/expecting anything from anyone actually.. but, he didn't know that. and- i know he doesn't really like spending money. but. all i wanted was a card.
maybe.. just
a hand-made card. with elementary writing
that says
i love you.
whatever. i don't need anything from scott. he is a very nice boy. he makes me laugh. and had never been mean to me. not once. we have a good relationship, and he certainly doesn't have to buy me to keep us strong. or even make things for me to keep me pleased.
but.. that doesn't mean he can't. whatever. i'm a jerk.
no- i'm not
i'm just a girl. like every one of you.
i received a hamster yesterday. i'm in love with her. a gift from dan, andrea, matt, and- i guess bryan beebe. hah. they named her whimpy. but i re-named her. i hope they don't get too upset. i call her stella. i bought her little salt-chew things today- and a pink ball to run around in.
she is just darling. i hope she out-lives her ten day warranty.
i think i'll be just heart broken if she dies. isn't that weird/?
meh. maybe not.
in honor of my first orientation day. i am declaring this week:;
art week.
i will make nice things.
my mom hates me. i wish she would cut that out.
the drama club party was also today:: eight people came. it was weak.
we stole abby's shoes and sang linkin park.
everything in my life
will be dowhill from there.
::miserable::
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